《time enough for love-时间足够你爱(英文版)》

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stairs and took a bath…I needed one although I had bathed before?supper。 And did it; in the tub。 And went to bed and stared at the ceiling。 Then got up and locked the door and took off my nightgown…and did it and did it and did it! Thinking about you; Theodore; every instant。 Your voice; how you smelled; the touch of your hand on mine。 But it took at least an hour before I was relaxed enough to sleep。〃
  
  (It took me even longer; dear; and I should have used your direct therapy。 But I was punishing myself for being a fool。 Off my trolley; dearest one; as I know it is never foolish to love。 But I didn't see how we could ever show our love。) 〃I wish I could have been there; darling…because a mile or two away I was aching with it…thinking of you。〃
  
  〃Theodore; I hoped you felt that way。 I needed you so and hoped that you needed me just as much。 But the best I could do was lock my door and do that~ and think about you; with nobody around but Ethel in hei crib and her too young to notice。 Oops! I lost you。 Oh; dear!〃
  
  第81节
  
  〃You haven't lost me; just that wee bit of proud flesh。 Which will recover soon; you promised me a second chance。 Change position? Shoulder pillow? Left; or right? I shouldn't
  
  have kept my weight on you so long; but I didn't want to move。〃 …
  
  〃I didn't want you to move as long as I could keep even a little of you in me。 You aren't too heavy; my hips are broad; and you let a woman breathe; sir。 Put me on either side; whichever you prefer。〃
  
  〃Like this?〃
  
  〃That's fy。 Oh; Theodore; this doesn't feel like our first time; I feel as if I had loved you forever and you had e back to …me at last。〃
  
  (Let's get away from that subject; Mama Maureen。) 〃I'll go on loving you forever; my darling。〃
  
  (Omitted)
  
  〃…told her bluntly that he would not marry her if she made any fuss over his joining the Army when he didn't have to。〃 …
  
  〃What did Nancy tell him?'
  
  〃She told him that she had been waiting to hear that; so now get her pregnant at once so they could have a few days' honeymoon before he joined up。 Nancy feels as strongly about warriors as her mother … does。 She came into my bedroom that night and told me what she had done; slightly teary but not worried over having jumped the gun。
  
  〃So we cried happy tears; and I cleared the matter with Brian and the Weatherals; and Nancy missed her next period
  
  …this was a month ago…and the wedding may be day after tomorrow or perhaps the day after that。〃
  
  (Omitted) …
  
  〃Darling; I wish I could see you。〃
  
  〃Oh; dear! I'd rather not turn on the Mazda lamp; Theodore。 These blinds are not so tight but what light would shine Out; as well as light under the door if by any chance Father came downstairs。〃
  
  〃Maureen; I will never ask you to take any chance you don't like。 I see you quite well with my fingertips…and these are not broken down。〃
  
  〃They flow off my ribs like melted marshmallows。 Theogore; when you open that package; please be very … careful that no one … is around; there is more in it than a pair of garters。〃 … …
  
  〃I did open it。〃…
  
  〃Then you know what I look like。〃
  
  〃Was that beautiful girl you?〃
  
  〃Tease。 Brian had me look straight at his camera。〃
  
  〃But; darling; while you don't look down that far; men don't tend to look up very far。 Especially me。 Not when I'm looking at a photograph of a perfectly gorgeous nude model。〃
  
  〃'Nude model;' my best Sunday hat!〃…
  
  〃Maureen; it is the loveliest picture I have ever owned and I will cherish it always。〃
  
  〃That's better and I don't believe it and I love hearing it。 Did you open the paper folded in with it?〃
  
  〃The baby curl? Did you clip it off Marie?'~
  
  〃Theodore; I do not mind being teased; it just makes you more like Brian。 But if he teases too much; 1 bite him。 Anywhere。 Here; for example。〃
  
  'Hey; not so hard!〃
  
  〃Then tell me where that curl came from。〃
  
  〃It came from your pretty; my pretty one; and I'll wear it over my heart forever。 But one reason I wanted to look at you is that you clipped so generous a lock that I worried that Brian might notice something missing…and ask why。〃
  
  〃I can tell him I gave it to the iceman。〃
  
  〃He won't believe that and will be sure that you have a new adventure to confess。〃
  
  …〃Then he won't press me to tell him now; he'll change the subject。 Although I wish I could tell him now; I keep thinking about both of you; outdoors in daylight; that was the fantasy that kept me awake。 Sweetheart; there is a candle on the dresser…electricity not being as dependable as the gas lights we used to have。 It wouldn't throw enough light to worry me。 Y)ou may look at me by candlelight all you wish and as you wish。〃 …
  
  〃Yes; darling! Matches where?〃
  
  〃Let me go and I'll get up and light it; I can find both in the dark。 Will I be allowed to look at you; too?〃
  
  … 〃Sure。 For contrast。 'Beauty and the Beast。'〃 …
  
  She giggled and kissed his ear。 〃Goat; maybe。 Or a stallion。 Theodore; I needed to be baby…stretched to accept you。〃
  
  〃I thought you said I felt like Brian?〃 …
  
  〃But he is a stallion; too。 Let me go。〃
  
  〃Pay tojl。〃
  
  〃Oh; goodness; darling; don't do that now! Or I'll be so shaky I won't be able to str…ike a match。〃
  
  Standing and by the light on one candle; they studied each other。 Lazarus felt his breath grow short at the dazzling glory of her。 For most of two years A had been deprived of the
  
  sweet joy of seeing a woman; and had not realized ho starv鏳 he had been for that great privilege。 Darling; can y guess how much this means to me? Mama Maureen; has one ever told you how much more sweetly beautiful a fu~ blown woman is than a maiden? Certainly your love breasts have held milk; that's; what they're for。 Why wou
  
  …I want them to look like marble?…I don't!
  
  She studied him just as closely; her face solemn; h nipples crinkled tightly。 Theodore…Lazarus my strange by will you guess that I suggested candlelight so that I cou see you? A woman is not supposed to get hungry for su things…but I miss the sight; the naked sight; of my hu band 。。 and how in the Name of Satan and all His Fall~ Thrones I can last even till November without even seeii a man I do not know。 Alma Bixby told me that she ha never seen her husband without clothes。 How can a woma live like that? Five children by a man she's never seen a over… Shocked her when I said that of course I had seen ir husband naked!
  
  Theodore…Lazarus; you don't look like my Briney Bo:
  
  your coloration is more like mine。 But; oh; how you fe like him; smell like him; talk like him; love like him! Yo~ pretty thing is ing up high again。 Briney beloved; I'i going to have him once more; as hard as possible!…and I' tell you about it tomorrow night if you'll just ask me fc a new bedtime story 。 。 or if I must; I'll save it for you ti you get back。 You're as strange a man as h~ is 。 。 and jw the wise and tolerant husband your bawdy wife needs。 Thea cross my heart; dearest; I'll try my best to keep from it unt you e back from Over There…but if I can't; even; wit Father and eight children to guard me; I promise you so' emnly that I will never bed with anyone but a warrior; a ma to be proud of in every way。 Such as this strange man。
  
  Lazarus; my love; are you really my descendant? I do be lieve that you know when the war will be over and that m:
  
  Briney will e … safely back to me。 Why; I am not sure… but since you told me; I have been free from worry for thi first time in many a lonely moon。 I hope the rest is true; too I want to believe in Tamara; and that she is descended fran me。 BuU don't want you to go away in only eight years!
  
  That innocent little picture… If I had not feared shockinl you; I would have given you some real 〃French postcards' Briney has taken of me。 Will you be upset if I take a closei look? I'll chance it。
  
  Mrs。 Smith suddenly dropped to one knee; looked closely; then touched him。 She looked up。 〃Now?〃
  
  〃Yes!〃 He picked her up; placed her on the bed。 Almost solemn1~' she helped him; then caught her breath as they joined。 〃Hard; Theodore! This time don't … be gentle!〃
  
  〃Yes; my beautiful one!〃 …
  
  When their happy violence s; not talking; muning through touch and the light of one candle。
  
  At last she said; 〃I must go; Theodore。 No; don't get up; just let me 'slide out。〃 She got up; picked up her wrap; blew out the candle; came back; leaned down and kissed him。 〃Thank you; Theodore…for everything。 But…e back to me; e back to me!〃
  
  〃I will; I will!〃
  
  Quickly and silently she was gone。
  
  CODA
  
  I
  
  …Somewhere in France
  
  Dear All my Family;
  
  I am writing this in my pocket diary where it will stay until this war is over…not that it matters; you'll get it just as soon。 But I can't send a sealed letter now; much less one sealed into five envelopes。 Something called 〃censorship〃…which means that every letter is opened and read and anything that might interest the Boche is cut out。 Such as dates and places and designations of military units and probably what 1 had for breakfast。 (Beans and boiled pork and fried potatoes; with coffee that would dissolve a spoon。)
  
  You see; I had this lovely ocean voyage as a guest of Uncle Sam and am now in the land of fine wines and beautiful women。 (The wine has been yin extremely ordinaire; and they seem to be hiding the beautiful women。 The best…looking one Fve seen had a slight mustache and very hairy legs; which I could have ignored had I not made the mistake of standing downwind。 Darlings; I am not sure the French take baths; at least in wartime。 But I'm in no position to criticize; a bath is a luxury。 Today; given a choice between a beautiful
  
  … woman and a hot bath; I'd pick the bath…otherwise she wouldn't touch me。)
  
  Don't worry that I am now in a 〃war zone。〃 That you've received this is proof 

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